Review: Not If I See You First By Eric Lindstrom


Summary of Not If I See You First

Parker Grant is blind. Her father “officially” committed suicide last summer and now her Aunt, Uncle and cousins have moved into her house.

Not If I See You First Eric LindstromShe starts a new year of high school having to teach the new recruits of her rules. When another local high school merges into Parker’s she never thought she’d have to face Scott Kilpatrick again. Now she more than anyone has to remember her most important rule… there are no second chances.


*Please note: I received this book gratis in order to provide a review. This review is my honest opinion and is unaffected by the receipt of this for free.*

Not If I See You First was very self-aware. Every word was carefully chosen to reflect exactly how Parker “see’s” the world. Or rather, how she doesn’t see it. Parker Grant is fiercely herself. Her personality shines through from the very moment the book begins. From the finer details of her wearing coloured scarves to cover her eyes, to spending every morning before registration with her best friend offering honest truths to people who can’t admit them, despite probably knowing them.

Parker is a perfect blend of arrogant and and brutally honest and this is perpetuated by her inability to see people’s reactions. Something she’s aware of and almost uses to her advantage. Not to say that her emotions are foolproof and unbreakable, she’s dealt with so much in such short space of time that it’s almost like a protective barrier.

I have to applaud Lindstrom’s writing of Parker because even though she’s somewhat unlikeable, her character development is steady and shows real tangible growth. In many ways this book is about forgiveness. In order for Parker to forgive Scott and the people around her, she needs to forgive herself and learn to appreciate that not everyone around her is going to treat her differently – because she specifically told them not too. Eric Lindstrom has written a headstrong female protagonist with a combination of some typical teenage quirks combined with an extraordinary number of bad circumstances.

Romance is both the forefront and subplot of this book. It is part of the forefront in the sense that it features frequently: Parker’s past and present romances, Sarah’s current relationship and the relationships of the people the counsel. The one thing that I did find a bit overly complex and somewhat inflated was Parker’s reason for not forgiving Scott. I appreciate that this is a large part of Parker’s progression throughout the novel but this was the only point at which I felt that the novel crossed over from being within the realm of reality to going a bit beyond the scope.

Overall, this book was eye-opening (excuse the pun) to ways that a writer can challenge themselves further by eliminating a key sensory aspect of life. It requires an extra level of attention to detail when writing and adds another level of awareness when putting themselves into the mind of the character.

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  1. What a great review! I love books with ‘unconventional’ (for lack of a better word) protagonists and this one right seems my alley, especially when you mentioned how much care the author has put into presenting us Parker’s world as she ‘sees’ it. I’ll be putting this on my TBR pile. 🙂

    1. Thanks! I really enjoyed reading it and couldn’t put it down. It was definitely an interesting perspective for a protagonist and I definitely recommend it! 🙂

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